ive gone deep into the brain and every nervous reaction connected with it. i should have just started drinking. but i continue to get further and further until i end up in the same spot sitting numb infront of this screen. get me a good play list keep smoking and get these clothes off i am staying in.
Thursday, October 13, 2011
i lost my lace i wanted to glue it to her shirt, that way shed be all pretty and ready for her big show. one month hangin up on a wall, of a place that i could believe in. but no, i showed it to a dream, drunkenly, he will never turn his lights on again. and the red head will always be on the phone and he will always paint her instead. we are the same dragon, and the same fish, with the same penetrating eyes, and eastern blood. eating the young girls, taking them home on the train, following my fellow dragon. the lace is gone, and i sent him a letter underneath his door. feeling timid in seeing him again... daggering me with those eyes and dreams of my childish ways and how he can hold them so understandingly in his hands.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
it is still warm, whatever the german warmth of a beginning fall means after it having been a spring kinda summer. indian summer a few days but they call it something else. serges in the kitchen with a boar machine and i have been waiting days for him in the bed